Trusting in Christ

These past few weeks have been hard for me. Sin has just been weighing me down and praise be to God that He hasn't killed me and "gave me over to my ways" (romans 1:23-25) but He has chiseld me and broke me down to rely on Him. I want to share what has been going on in by brain lately. Now, I love God, without Him i could not live nor do i have a purpose to live. Now, i also love theology, which is the study and knowledge of God, i love learning about His attributes and doctrine, i just love it. Now, i think i have been idolizing the knowledge i have of God, and not God Himself. Its a great thing to know about God and His ways, because it keeps us from heresy and gives us a reply to questions in which we should know the answers to and proclaim to others. Now, i am not knocking down theology, but if we make that our god and not God Himself then we are idolators, and not giving God the honor and praise that He deserves. I love when Jesus heals the man born blind in the Gospel of John, chapter 9. In this Chapter we see that the blind man did no ask to be healed, but that Jesus chose to heal Him for the glory of the Father. Now, when the man is healed he was approached by his neighbors, asking "is this not he who sat and begged?" to get to what i am trying to say in Chapeter 9:25, he says "whether He is a sinner or not i do not know. One thing i do know is that I was once blind but now i see." Now, what we need to know is that we were blind, dead, and filthy in our sins, but through Christ and Christ alone do we see, live, and have our being. Thats where we need to start off. We need to believe that truth, that solid fact that we need God to make us see, and to breath in us life. Theology does play a role in a Christians life, but i have heard testimonies of people having a knowledge of God and they are still blind, and later on God truly opens there eyes and they realize the difference between knowing about Him and having an experience with Him where He just makes you see, and bring life in your once dead soul. We need to taste and see that the Lord is good, we need to get in His world in which He speaks in and experience His promises to His people and the loud fulfillment to that promise, which is found in Jesus Christ. Again, theology does serve a purpose in the christians life and is needed, but first we must examine ourselves to see if we are in the faith (2 corinthians 13:5) it is a hard thing to do, this self examintation but it is better to realize that you are walking in the darkiness and then run to the light, which is Christ, than to decieve ourselves and remain in darkness til the Day of the Lord comes. Oh,i hope that we all truly cling to the cross of Christ, and that cross alone! i pray that we all humble ourselves and just rely on the atonement of Jesus Christ alone, because if we rely on anything else then we are still dead in our sins. I pray, and hope that this is edifying to the body, and that God uses my weak words to express His mighty power. Grace and peace fam! Amen!!!